Love Letter

So this is something that I know you could care less about. It's been so long since we last agreed to be friends, but then somehow ended up going our seperate ways. Though I absolutlely feel like I am in the best possible place I could be at in my life, I can't help but always have you on my mind. It just seems like you are always there. The worst part of it is that I still have you as a constant character in my dreams. Then I wake up and realize that you are no longer a character in my real life. That tends to hurt sometimes when I realize that you have a new life that no longer includes me. I am a mere referrence to your past, a footnote. But I have realized the importance of that. I've changed you, or at least I would like to think that I did. And you in turn have given me a better attitude about life and how not to make mistakes. I feel like I am betraying so many people and so much of myself when I write this, so from now on, I'll try not to think about this subject anymore. It's so hard to deny this part of my life because it shaped me into the person that I am today, but there is also a part of me that is so desperate to not let go. God I'm pathetic.